i love You.
no matter how tiresome
no matter how stressful
the weeks are:
You are my only strength
the only never-ending
Reason.
i love You.
though sometimes
i seem to love someone else
though sometimes
i forget what it means to me
and what it means to You
most especially.
i love You
though You know my heart
You know the deepest leaven
ever saved
ever kept.
though I know that You know
that sometimes 'we' do not matter
that sometimes i falter
i fall apart
still i end up
inside Your embrace.
i rest in the thought
that You love me.
though sometimes i do not love You
then i go away
and come back
and love You again.
You do not change.
this is my only Rest.
