Old Enough

Father, I am now twenty-two. And from this point of view, I couldn't believe I have lived this long, yet I have kept only fragments of memories for the past years. I have treasured scenes that keep me smiling up to now, but also, I have hidden inside painful things that still make me cry. But above all these, I am consciously aware that all through out my life, You were there. You are still here.

In the past, I have pretended to be older. Though young by age, I have gone through things I never thought I would experience that early. I was hurt, hit, bruised, in ways no one could ever imagine. You shook me to the core. You broke me in all my self-centeredness. You showed me things way too bright and way too dark for me to comprehend, but still You helped me. You had a purpose. And now, I am twenty-two. Old enough to know who I am.

I am mature enough to decide: I will follow You wherever You go. I will walk with You. No matter what happens, I will seek You in all of Your holiness.

I am strong enough to be here: to stand firm in what You have instructed me to do. To stay focused on You and refusing to look at the people around me. And whenever I feel weak, You will always be my strength.

I am wise enough to choose: Your will instead of my own. To bow down in complete surrender. To realize that without You, I can do nothing. To choose life, to choose You.

I am old enough to say, "I love You, Abba Father." You are my world.You are my everything. I would die without You. I give You my heart, every beat, every hidden thing inside me. All is Yours.

Thank You for this life. Thank You for restoring my soul.

And as I spend more years with You, my cup will forever overflow, because You have been my strong Refuge. My only Portion in this life. You are my Treasure.

I love You, oh, how I love You so...